Kurt Cobain’s Suicide Note

Kurt Cobain's Handwritten Suicide Note

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.

I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

133 responses

  1. Oh i wish i had been alive when kurt was he was sooo hot, n funny. sadly im only 11 so i wasnt even born. 🙁 i miss having a sence of completeness(ish)

  2. o my gosh reading that just changed my day. i luv nirvana and kurt was so hott, but thats not what matters. he was a great person and i feel for his daughter(francis) , but not so much courtney cause i think she is partly y he had done this to himself… i am a HUGE kurt & nirvana fan . that will never ever change. i was born a few days before kurt had ended his life…if he hadnt my life would have been completely different. like, the way i thought about nirvana, thought about the way life is, the way people choose to live their lives and just how people choose to be themselves… not go with what everyone else chooses to do, they do their own thing and stand out in the crowd…they dont choose to be like the other people and blend in with everyone copying every single thing every last person on the earth does. i would consider myself like kurt… (doing my own thing and being myself.)

  3. I’m a huge fan of Kurt Cobain and how he changed the course of rock and roll history. nirvana is my favorite band. I am a wannabe musician, and am in a band with two of my friends. I only hope that i will be as successful as he was. If i were to tell kurt one thing if he were alive today i would tell him that nothing in the world is worth dieing for. and that he will always be my hero. RIP Kurt Cobain

  4. What can I say but oh my fucking god!!! I bet anything Coutney is to blame for this. She probably put to much presure on him about being gone on the tours and not enough time with her and Francis. Reading this makes me cry even more than I already did. If only I wasn’t one when he died, I would tell him how much he means to all of us and he needed to keep going, life wouldn’t be the same without him to keep singing away all his cares. Good Bye Kurt Cobain, my hero!!! I will always love Nirvana forever and always!!!

    R.I.P. KURT COBAIN
    1967-1994
    May you sing your song in peace (no thanks to Courney!!!!)

  5. RIP Kurt Donald Cobain
    Kurt is and always will be the hero of many Nitvana fans. It isn’t often someone will his talent and skill touches the lives of so many. His words were pure. Me and my sister have always been Nirvana fans, since we were born. Herioen addict or not. He couldn’t have killed himself. He had too much herioen in his system to even lift the gun. Besides, he was left handed, you could tell by the gituar he played. The only piece of evidence that lead to suicid was the shell on the left side of the body. The gun in question was found on his right-hand side. The gun beared no fingerprints. How could he have shot himself, wiped down the gun, and threw it over his body, he couldn’t have! That is way so many Nirvana fans, inclueding me, believe Courtney Love shot him. She was also heard making statements such as her band and Nirvana would get more profit with Kurt Cobain dead!

    RIP KURT DONALD COBAIN
    1967-1994
    A true rock god and artist
    May you rest in peace singing your songs in Heaven, were you belong!!
    “It is better to burn out then to fade away.” -Kurt Cobain
    You are and always will be my hero, Kurt, for now and ever more!!!

  6. Kurt Cobain you influenced me in so many ways i learned everything i know about guitar from watching your live shows kurt i cried so hard when i heard of your death i maybe on 16 but kurt you are my true hero and my inspiration to me playing my music i will always remember you and i will one day meet you in the next life but until then kurt you have my un dieing love for you and your beautiful lyrics may your soul rest in piece.

  7. “its better to burn out than to fade away” most strongest words i have heard in my lifetime… R.I.P. Cobain.

  8. pplz Kurt didnt kill hm self u are stoopid if u belive that ^^ his wife obviously killed him…i think well wut ever even if she didnt she still didnt like him like a normal wife would and really think about this and youll find most of it is true

  9. My Name Is Sofi. I Adore Kurt Cobain With My Life. Even Though I Was Born 2 Months After He Passed, His Death Still Rips Me Apart As If I Were His Best Friend.I Absolutley Agree With kurtcobainsbiggestfan, I Dont Believe With Any Ounce In My Body That He Killed Himself. It Was A Person Courtney Sent To Kill Our Beloved Kurt. And If Frances Ever Reads This, Im Truly Sorry For Your Fathers Death And That I Reach Out To You.
    R.I.P
    Kurt Donald Cobain
    Feb.20.1967 – Apr.08.1994

    I’ll Love You Forever Kurt Cobain.

  10. i was 4 years old when he died, and i listen to his music ever since. Kurt you are my hero hope i see you again someday.

  11. i know it sound cliche, but his songs changed my life. really changed my life. i miss him so much.. i was 14 when he committed suicide & it shocked me so much i cried like a girl. wish i could try sumthing 2 change his mind, too late..

  12. Kurt, ever since i heard my first by nirvana when i was 12 (now 15) u have inspired me so much. you’ve inspired so many people and youve made such great music. I wish you were here on earth, becuase society would be different

  13. we all mourn the death of kurt that is a good thing, but just dont buy any of his stuff becuase courtny is still selling all of his stuff.she once hacked into 88 of his credit cards! so dont buy anything of hers.and yes i was 3 years of age when he”died” and i to pray and look up at him. relgious wise.

    cobianism

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