To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.
I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
Peeple! Please stop being so naive! Before you just believe that Kurt Cobain would kill himself at least look into it! If your any kind of fan of Kurt or Nirvana you owe him at least that! Look into it and think, ‘Does any of this make sense?’ Because if you look at it all it doesn’t! Yes you can be asinine and look the other way to think that maybe he would kill himself but the facts show that most likely that’s not what happened! And if you think hard, don’t worry not to hard it’s acualy very easy, you can surely come up with at least two people who would want him dead and had the money and power to pull this off. Think who got left behind and who got the big bucks, and left over music, after the death of Cobain. Can’t figure it out yet? Well then you must not have done your reading and you don’t deserve to be a fan. For one just look at the note! Don’t just read what was written! Look at the actual note, look a little funny? Well look again! It’s two different hand writtings! And not just the I’m writting nice now I’m writting messy. Who got all his music when he died? Who got all his money? Who is still making money off of him? Come on, can you really be that idiotic? All these 11 and 12 year olds saying they love Kurt and how he changed their lives even though they weren’t born till after he was dead! Are you kidding me?!?! They know nothing about him! How could they! That makes me sick to think that people would let their kids of all people think that this was a suicide! How dare you! I have a seven year old, she listons to Nirvana with me and she knows the whole story! Sorry I know i’m rambling and most people don’t even care but saying that Kurt Cobain killed him self is a crime to everyone who he touched in life and now in death.
BOYCOTT CORTNEY LOVE AND DAVE GROHL, THEY KILLED KURT COBAIN!!!!!
i just want to say kurt cobain is our HERO !!
I remember the day Kurt Cobain died I was 15yrs old & everyone assumed it was suicide… I lean more to the murder theory just cos some pieces of evidence just dont add up…. but having said that NONE of us fans know 4 sure what happened to him only he does, Courtney & ? I also feel the police did a sloppy job in his case. There are lots of facts that u can research @ justiceforkurt.com
Some things I find strange are the fact that he wished to divorce Courtney, also that he hired an investigator & that he was fearful of his life…If u were suicidal why would u care for your personal safety?? And the handwriting samples in the backpack is really suspicious..who does that?? The 90s were a great time to be a teen/adult & fuck I miss that wonderful era full of cool music..But having said that I dont hold it against anyone who is younger than me who listens to nirvana or other bands…alice in chains is a good 1 too..layne rocks. You cant have everything from ur own era & I personally would be a hypocrite cos I own 60/70s music which is wonderful & captures the mood/ feel of the time also it is interesting to see the influences of people such as Kurt & other musicians..u can hear it in their music..
kurt is my favorit person in the world….his songs toutch my heart.. i will always miss him..and i to think that he did not kill himself i think his wife did…i dont care what other people think i will always think that. i love u kurt and i always will RIP
i remmber the day it all went down it was like a blurr to meseeing his boby layed out on mtv’s live news report and then aday or to later im notsure by then i was getting to phucked up to besure cortney read this letter live over the phone i was 16 then 31 now and i still feel that there was so much more going on with it will never prove she did it but we all now she did yoko love in action another candyland loser who did what ever she hadto just to keep her throne……………..
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
—i think this part is fake cause the rest is about quitting music till here
Kurt Cobain and Nirvana Rulez.
I wanted to meet Kurt but that terrible thing was happened…. ;(
I was seventeen when you passed away. I remember that day…we were crushed by the news. Half the school went home.
You changed music as we knew it, and because of you, writers and musicians like myself have a voice. You were not a virtuoso, but a poet – both simple and complex.
Rest in Peace Kurt, you will never fade away.
people…
kurt changed my life like he changed all of yours, but re-read the letter, maybe once or twice… observe it well… look for a deeper sense.
THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE LETTER.
this is just a letter saying he is done with the whole media/music/nirvana shizzle and is leaving the music industry because he just doesnt like it anymore.
the only lines that actually say he was going to die are the last four. if you look in, you ser that it is not the same handwriting. and it is writen at the end of the letter, after the signature, as if it were a post-scriptum. im Kurt wanted to say he was going to die, he would have done so diffrently. he was a smart person, he wouldnt have ended his life like that… even if he was high, even if he didnt like what he was doing, he would not have commitied suicide.
KURT COBAIN WAS MURDERED. AND COURTNEY WAS INVOLVED.
http://www.cobaincase.com
http://www.justiceforkurt.com
well of corse he was murdered cause there was no fingerprints on the shotgun, there was a tiny bit of blood by him, no BRAINS anywhere in the room he shot himself in.
well I think he was murdered cause there was no fingerprints on the shotgun, there was a tiny bit of blood by him, no BRAINS anywhere in the room he shot himself in. That pretty much explains right there that he was murdered!
i like bum a lot
im i stupid head hav i mentioned i like bum a lot
KKK sucks
black people rule
kurt u were mazing and u changed the way i lived my life i will always b ur fan!!
i love kurt sooooo much i know exactly how he felt. but he died before i was even born since im only 11!! but i loved him sooooooooooo much and im in the process of making a kurt cobain website right now!
I remember first hearing Nirvana and thinking “Finally an end this shit 80s crap!” There music was (is) everything I am. Kurt Cobain was an amazing person. I was 16 when he went.
RIP Kurt Cobain. See you in grunge heaven dude!! 🙂
Oh, nearly forgot, I like soup and I dont have a cat.