Kurt Cobain’s Suicide Note

Kurt Cobain's Handwritten Suicide Note

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.

I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

133 responses

  1. well, kurt died exactly a month before i was born. and he died at the age of 27. that would be my hockey number. and also we both play the guitar and i have the same style hair as kurt. mine is just a tad longer. hah, its kinda freaky.

  2. I was just 24 days when Kurt died.. So I didn’t know who he was at the time but he’s a hero to me now. I absolutely love Nirvana and Kurt and I totally wish he could still be alive today. He died way too young. He was such a great guy and I think he was so brave taking all the shit that he did from everyone. As for Courtney, I absolutely fricken hate her and I wish she would go die! I believe Kurt was MURDERED and to be honest, think she had something to do with it. I feel so much anger towards her. Kurt will always be in my heart as I’ll always listen to his awesome music and think about everything that he done. He never thought he was loved and if only he were alive today, he’d know for sure that he was. No way did he kill himself! R.I.P. Kurt Cobain <3 x

  3. I was 11 months when Kurt died… and i feel awesomely proud of having those little 11 months of time with HIM… idk if courtney or whoever killed him, he passed away and we still having his memory and legacy… and we will always remember him as the awesome artist he was.

    Thanks kurt \m/

  4. He was the new elvis presley to americans he had a way of writing a song that made u want to listen to it all day

  5. hey

    believe it or not i was born on the 5th of april 1994. which is the day Kurt Cobain died. and yeah that sucks

    ‘i wish i was gay, not that i am, just to piss of homophbes’

    yeahh, me too Kurt

  6. i was not alive when kurt died.i wish i could of seen him
    U R MY HERO
    I LV U KURT
    i cry 2 think of u dead.
    SOME1 KILLED KURT
    R.I.P

  7. This sucide “letter” of Kurt’s is asburd they found a paper in Courtney love’s backpack in the time of death. Futhermore, There wasnt any finger prints on gun on the crime scene. So the jig is up Courtney confess!
    But, any way R.i.p Kurt

    Love always,
    Kitana♥

  8. Kurt Cobain seemed beautiful and emotional – we all are. somebody should have helped him, ’cause the world is still in mourning.. 🙁

  9. courtney did love him, he did love her. but he was going to divorce her and he wasnt going to give her most of his millions when they did divorce. no fingerprints on the gun or pen, the handwriting changes, also it doesn sound like a suicide note in the beginning only at the end. see in the beginning it just sounds like he was going to quit the band but when you go to very last parts “Peace, love, empathy.
    Kurt Cobain

    Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
    Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
    For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

    I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!” only that sounds like suicide. come on people not that hard. courtney did it! so screw you stacy f.

  10. Oh, why did Kurt kill himself! Nirvana is my favorite band and Kurt was so hot! I wish I could bring him back to life and meet him! Even though he died two years before I was born, I love Nirvana because I saw a picture of Kurt Cobain and I found out he was in a band, so I listened to some of the songs, and they became my favorite band in no time. OMG HE WAS SO HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  11. I wasn’t a big fan of Nirvana, but he did seem like a funny guy and I wish I could’ve met him for that. I’m only 11 so he was dead 4 years before I was born.

  12. R.I.P Kurt Donald Cobain

    You were as hot as all get out! I hope you hear me. I’m 13 and I wish I could go to one of your concerts and meet you because you are like my favorite celebrity and you’re hot! My myspace page has all your pics and videos because I love you!!!!! R.I.P. and think about what you did because I could’ve given you a reason to like performing!!!!!

  13. God Bless Kurt Cobain, I was a senior in high school when the news hit on MTV. I watched all weekend. Have all the cd’s. If your at the Key West Hard rock cafe, One of Kurt’s school yearbooks is on display. Come as you are, is my favorite song. To the young Kurt Cobain fans, I enjoy Jim Morrison as much as you do Kurt. I was 4 years from being born when Jim passed. God bless Kurt & Jim

  14. Im literally so pissed I was only one when he died. Ive looked back on everything hes done, I’ve read his books, Seen Nirvanas DVD’s and videos and listened to all his music. He really was absoloutley incredible.
    Hope youre doing alright up there Kurt !
    R.I.P. x

  15. Courtney killed Kurt! There is enough evidence out there to send Courtney to jail for a decade. I just hope the case is solved and Courtney really did kill Kurt because she deserves to get her ass thrown in jail for life! Cobaincase.com and the book Love and Death are both very good evidence sources. R.I.P. Kurt you will never die in our hearts! Nirvana’s gonna be a band that’s gonna be around forever. Of the 90’s Nirvana was the Beatles! And Nirvana was better! Frances Bean Cobain doesn’t even know how her own father died, and that’s just way too sad! Courtney should know how bad her daughter feels, although I’m sure Courtney doesn’t give a shit about Frances, because she just wants to blow all Kurt’s money on drugs. Frances is turning 17 tomorrow and she still needs to go to college! If you have an account on Stardoll I have a club that’s pro-Nirvana and Kurt Cobain and anti-Courtney Love. It’s called Nirvana_Kurt in case you’re interested in joining. I wasn’t around when Kurt was. I’m only 13. I was introduced to the song Lithium when I was 11, and I loved it and got into more Nirvana music. I found my dad’s old albums of Nevermind and In Utero and I listened to them constantly and now ever since I turned 13 Nirvana will always be my favorite band! Again Kurt R.I.P. and I can’t wait to meet you in heaven!

  16. “IT’S BETTER TO BURN OUT THAN FADE AWAY” rest in peace kurt. may you live on in grunge rock heaven. see ya there kurt i really will then i can meet you and tell you how stupid that was but i still respect you. but i don’t respect courtney no offence to those who like her. i love you kurt.

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