Kurt Cobain’s Suicide Note

Kurt Cobain's Handwritten Suicide Note

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.

I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

145 responses

  1. kurt know that you’re always in my prayers! and the day where i will die, i will meet u in heaven! lol! but until then, REST IN PEACE!

  2. kurt was a intelligent person…very brilliant mind..i think we all have alittle it of kurt in us..(sollenly speaking)”the worse crime is faking it” great words…he believe in the freedom of punk rock…that not what grunge is…its just messy punk rock..

  3. I think Kurt Cobain is one of the coolest and most mysterious figures in Rock History. I fxxkin worship him man!!! I was hooked when I heard “Smells Like Teen Spirit”, and I still am to this day. I wish I would’ve met him, though I was born like 3 months b4 he killed himself. So anyway, R.I.P. Kurt, We all love and miss u!!!

  4. THE SUICIDE IS A LIE!!! THERE IS SO MUCH EVIDENCE SHOWING MURDER!!! FIRST, HE HAD HEROIN INSIDE HIM THAT WOULD NOT MAKE HIM TO BE ABLE TO PULL THE TRIGGER. THE SHOTGUN CASING WAS ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HIS BODY WHILE IF HE SHOT HIMSELF IT WOULD BE ON HIS RIGHT SIDE. HANDWRITING EXPERTS HAVE SAID THAT THE LAST LINES THAT WHERE WRITTEN TO COURTNEY AND FRANCES WAS NOT WRITTEN BY HIM AND THE NOTE WAS WRITTEN A YEAR EARLIER. R.I.P. KURT YOU WILL NOT BE FORGOTTEN AND YOU WILL FINALLY GET JUSTICE !!!!!

  5. It doesn’t make sense to discuss about Kurt’s murder. He simply commited suicide. Why ? Because he simply feel he reached the top and he really did it. Don’t you think many of us did it already ? Aren’t we too coward to act the same ? The world would be better if we all would think same as Kurt. Unfortunately we are not. RIP Kurt, you will be always in my hart / soul / life. I wish to be able to join you sometime

  6. Hello im Berni from Germany. Kurt’s music is great and fantastic. i belive that Kurt was murdered!! R.I.P Kurt. you are my hero!!!

    an sorry for my bad english^^

  7. Sorry to some of you but not all of you get this I am a fan of Nirvana and Kurt Cobain also but do not blaim it on the people around him it was his desicion to end his life because he had no fun doing anything. He didn’t want his daughter to end up like he did miserable. One of you said you would tell him nothing is worth dying for… He died for his family his daughter because he loved her so much. I am not trying to make any enemies though. This is a very sad story and you don’t have to blaim it on people no one knows what can happen next if who you are blaiming knew he was sad then they would let him quit. Some of you are young I know but I am 12 years old you have to open your hearts to every position in everything. If you know someone is miserable stop them some of you say I wish he wasn’t miserable and kept going. In life you can’t always do what you want. Don’t push someone to go if they’re miserable

  8. Dear Kurt,
    Honestly im kinda happy that your dead, cuze now you dont suffering this world.
    After all thats what “Nirvana” means… “Nirvana is the state of mind when you are free from suffering,happyness and control..which in other words is DEATH”, and thats what Nirvana ment to you – freedom!
    I hope you happy up there..no… im sure you are happy!
    Love You From All My Heart!
    Ohh and say “hi” to Elvis for me, and tell him he owns me diner!!

  9. kurt, my hero, my inspiration, a true genius who was above the fame and success he aquired in such a deep way that it caused him pain to be a part of something he considered to be bland and no longer real. I connect with too many of the concepts in this note to ignore. My heart bleeds for every person in the world and i thinl i’ve had enough of crying for others and nobody crying for me. consider this my resignation from life, i’ve grown tired of this world in which i remain a silent genius. My music has lost heart and so have I. Its better to burn out than fade away.

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