Kurt Cobain’s Suicide Note
Posted by admin on April 8th, 1994 filed in News
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.
I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
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February 27th, 2008 at 11:34 am
curt you met so much to me u infuenced me to be a better person i luv u
February 27th, 2008 at 11:34 am
yes i spelled KURt
March 8th, 2008 at 8:34 pm
Oh i wish i had been alive when kurt was he was sooo hot, n funny. sadly im only 11 so i wasnt even born.
i miss having a sence of completeness(ish)
March 12th, 2008 at 5:04 pm
o my gosh reading that just changed my day. i luv nirvana and kurt was so hott, but thats not what matters. he was a great person and i feel for his daughter(francis) , but not so much courtney cause i think she is partly y he had done this to himself… i am a HUGE kurt & nirvana fan . that will never ever change. i was born a few days before kurt had ended his life…if he hadnt my life would have been completely different. like, the way i thought about nirvana, thought about the way life is, the way people choose to live their lives and just how people choose to be themselves… not go with what everyone else chooses to do, they do their own thing and stand out in the crowd…they dont choose to be like the other people and blend in with everyone copying every single thing every last person on the earth does. i would consider myself like kurt… (doing my own thing and being myself.)
March 12th, 2008 at 7:35 pm
I’m a huge fan of Kurt Cobain and how he changed the course of rock and roll history. nirvana is my favorite band. I am a wannabe musician, and am in a band with two of my friends. I only hope that i will be as successful as he was. If i were to tell kurt one thing if he were alive today i would tell him that nothing in the world is worth dieing for. and that he will always be my hero. RIP Kurt Cobain
March 17th, 2008 at 10:37 am
What can I say but oh my fucking god!!! I bet anything Coutney is to blame for this. She probably put to much presure on him about being gone on the tours and not enough time with her and Francis. Reading this makes me cry even more than I already did. If only I wasn’t one when he died, I would tell him how much he means to all of us and he needed to keep going, life wouldn’t be the same without him to keep singing away all his cares. Good Bye Kurt Cobain, my hero!!! I will always love Nirvana forever and always!!!
R.I.P. KURT COBAIN
1967-1994
May you sing your song in peace (no thanks to Courney!!!!)
March 17th, 2008 at 10:38 am
Happy late 41st birthday Kurt!!!
March 18th, 2008 at 10:03 am
RIP Kurt Cobain
March 18th, 2008 at 10:19 am
RIP Kurt Donald Cobain
Kurt is and always will be the hero of many Nitvana fans. It isn’t often someone will his talent and skill touches the lives of so many. His words were pure. Me and my sister have always been Nirvana fans, since we were born. Herioen addict or not. He couldn’t have killed himself. He had too much herioen in his system to even lift the gun. Besides, he was left handed, you could tell by the gituar he played. The only piece of evidence that lead to suicid was the shell on the left side of the body. The gun in question was found on his right-hand side. The gun beared no fingerprints. How could he have shot himself, wiped down the gun, and threw it over his body, he couldn’t have! That is way so many Nirvana fans, inclueding me, believe Courtney Love shot him. She was also heard making statements such as her band and Nirvana would get more profit with Kurt Cobain dead!
RIP KURT DONALD COBAIN
1967-1994
A true rock god and artist
May you rest in peace singing your songs in Heaven, were you belong!!
“It is better to burn out then to fade away.” -Kurt Cobain
You are and always will be my hero, Kurt, for now and ever more!!!
March 31st, 2008 at 4:20 pm
Kurt Cobain you influenced me in so many ways i learned everything i know about guitar from watching your live shows kurt i cried so hard when i heard of your death i maybe on 16 but kurt you are my true hero and my inspiration to me playing my music i will always remember you and i will one day meet you in the next life but until then kurt you have my un dieing love for you and your beautiful lyrics may your soul rest in piece.
April 7th, 2008 at 10:52 am
kurt cobain has been my hero sence i heard nirvana and im so sad ur not here because u rock and always will
April 7th, 2008 at 10:53 am
kurt cobain has been my hero since i heard nirvana and u rock and u always will
April 13th, 2008 at 11:01 am
“its better to burn out than to fade away” most strongest words i have heard in my lifetime… R.I.P. Cobain.
April 24th, 2008 at 3:09 pm
pplz Kurt didnt kill hm self u are stoopid if u belive that ^^ his wife obviously killed him…i think well wut ever even if she didnt she still didnt like him like a normal wife would and really think about this and youll find most of it is true
April 24th, 2008 at 3:20 pm
My Name Is Sofi. I Adore Kurt Cobain With My Life. Even Though I Was Born 2 Months After He Passed, His Death Still Rips Me Apart As If I Were His Best Friend.I Absolutley Agree With kurtcobainsbiggestfan, I Dont Believe With Any Ounce In My Body That He Killed Himself. It Was A Person Courtney Sent To Kill Our Beloved Kurt. And If Frances Ever Reads This, Im Truly Sorry For Your Fathers Death And That I Reach Out To You.
R.I.P
Kurt Donald Cobain
Feb.20.1967 - Apr.08.1994
I’ll Love You Forever Kurt Cobain.
April 26th, 2008 at 11:57 am
i was 4 years old when he died, and i listen to his music ever since. Kurt you are my hero hope i see you again someday.
May 1st, 2008 at 9:22 pm
i know it sound cliche, but his songs changed my life. really changed my life. i miss him so much.. i was 14 when he committed suicide & it shocked me so much i cried like a girl. wish i could try sumthing 2 change his mind, too late..
May 1st, 2008 at 9:24 pm
rest in peace kurdt, love u..
May 3rd, 2008 at 5:43 pm
Kurt, ever since i heard my first by nirvana when i was 12 (now 15) u have inspired me so much. you’ve inspired so many people and youve made such great music. I wish you were here on earth, becuase society would be different
May 7th, 2008 at 7:48 am
we all mourn the death of kurt that is a good thing, but just dont buy any of his stuff becuase courtny is still selling all of his stuff.she once hacked into 88 of his credit cards! so dont buy anything of hers.and yes i was 3 years of age when he”died” and i to pray and look up at him. relgious wise.
cobianism
May 7th, 2008 at 5:44 pm
That is sad. What is even sadder is I only live 100 miles away from his home town of aberdeen WA I wish that he was alive to see how much people LOVE him I love him alot. If he was alive I would move to aberdeen so I could meet him and go to his concerts to bad I was only 6 when he died. I also do not think that it was suicide if you know what I talking about. R.I.P KURT you are loved(:
May 14th, 2008 at 12:55 pm
kurt is an influence in my life. His music soothes me, and for once in my life, I now that someone understands…but he was murdered, he didn’t commit suicide!(www.justice for kurt.com) e-mail me at (www.kayla_christian04@yahoo.com)
May 23rd, 2008 at 1:06 am
Kurt, I miss you and I love you.
May 23rd, 2008 at 12:35 pm
R.I.P
Kurt Cobain
2/20/67-4/08/94
luv ya
May 23rd, 2008 at 9:09 pm
Nirvana was by far the greatest band, and Kurt was the backbone of that with his strong lyrics and his attitude. He was one of the greatest guitarist/singers of the 90’s and his legacy will live on through his masterpieces of music. I do beleive as well, that he was murdered, but if it was suicide, that still doesn’t change what he did and who he was. And he will live on forever with his music…
May 23rd, 2008 at 9:40 pm
Kurt is an AWESOME musician. One of a kind, he was brilliant. For those of you that think that Kurt committed suicide, you should really read some of the books for instince, Hank Harrison wrote a book on how he believes that his daughter (Courtney Love) had something to do it. And what about another “suicide” Kristen Pfaff. Kristen was planning on leaving Hole and CL the day before she died. She had her U-Haul all packed up and was going back to Minneapolis and the night before she was to leave she found dead. She drowned in her bath tub. She crossed CL. I have read books and books about all this and not one ounce of me believes that Kurt killed himself. I could go on and on but I won’t, read some books. You’ll see! Kurt you rock my world Always and Forever. We’ll meet in the end. Rock on!
May 23rd, 2008 at 9:48 pm
check out tom grant’s investigation on it at http://www.cobaincase.com
May 23rd, 2008 at 10:41 pm
Sorry, Kristen died from a heroin overdose as well, she did not drown. She died in the bath tub though. Look into all this you would not believe what you read! Check out the interview with El Duce on this topic and see what happens to him.
May 31st, 2008 at 2:08 pm
reading this makes kurt cobain and courtney loves whole love story such a tragedy. fukk all you bitches who are saying its courtney loves fault. personally i agree with courtney love when she says kurt was an asshole. sorry girls most of you still dont know wassup. courtney love loved him…but how will you feel if a rock star loved you? really you? not all the other girls in the crowd…they were just fans…but yet that big rockstar still loves the fans too..we dont really know the fights they went through…i bet drugs and comedowns were wat caused them in the first place. kurt cobain and courtney love LOVED eachother…girls we need to accept it. kurt cobain has such a passion and spirit that still remains everytime you hear a nirvana song. i think he and courtney made such a beautiful couple. both of them living the ultimate grunge life, rock and roll love. yea courtney love is crazy and iam sure kurt cobain was too….but if ne of you guys actually listen to hole and read her lyrics then u will see how beautiful courtney love’s soul is even till this day. you will see why kurt cobain had her…and ihave a big admiration for her still living through all she did and still trying to keep frances on her side. yea she may have drug problems.. big fucken deal!! everyone and their moms are doing drugs…so all you girls saying its courtney love fault you should stop being so cynical! yea kurt cobain was hott and his music was great and the fact that he killed himself is very sad, but iam sure nonone really felt the pain as hard as his real loved ones that knew him. and remember behind a great man a woman stands …so all the insparation kurt cobain gives is wonderful..but wat made it is more great was how he loved the world so much..just not himself. which is very understandable since the world is such a bitch but you still gotta love it. sometimes though when people do drugs it really affects how shitty their bodies feel. that they cant stand it anymore…my overall theory was that kurt cobain shot himself in the head because of the overdose the amount of heroin a human body can stand. kurt cobain knew already what he was doing. he knew he was great but then he believed he wasnt so he rather killed himself while being super high in nirvana. so….all you dumbasses keep believing he was murdered by a goddess that loved him,,,,apparently most of you dont really know watsupp.
i have been a loyal fan to nirvana for 6 years now..
so all i gotta really rite here is
RIP
kurt cobain
your presence will still remain<3
May 31st, 2008 at 2:09 pm
reading this makes kurt cobain and courtney loves whole love story such a tragedy. fukk all you bitches who are saying its courtney loves fault. personally i agree with courtney love when she says kurt was an asshole. sorry girls most of you still dont know wassup. courtney love loved him…but how will you feel if a rock star loved you? really you? not all the other girls in the crowd…they were just fans…but yet that big rockstar still loves the fans too..we dont really know the fights they went through…i bet drugs and comedowns were wat caused them in the first place. kurt cobain and courtney love LOVED eachother…girls we need to accept it. kurt cobain has such a passion and spirit that still remains everytime you hear a nirvana song. i think he and courtney made such a beautiful couple. both of them living the ultimate grunge life, rock and roll love. yea courtney love is crazy and iam sure kurt cobain was too….but if ne of you guys actually listen to hole and read her lyrics then u will see how beautiful courtney love’s soul is even till this day. you will see why kurt cobain had her…and ihave a big admiration for her still living through all she did and still trying to keep frances on her side. yea she may have drug problems.. big fucken deal!! everyone and their moms are doing drugs…so all you girls saying its courtney love fault you should stop being so cynical! yea kurt cobain was hott and his music was great and the fact that he killed himself is very sad, but iam sure nonone really felt the pain as hard as his real loved ones that knew him. and remember behind a great man a woman stands …so all the insparation kurt cobain gives is wonderful..but wat made it is more great was how he loved the world so much..just not himself. which is very understandable since the world is such a bitch but you still gotta love it. sometimes though when people do drugs it really affects how shitty their bodies feel. that they cant stand it anymore…my overall theory was that kurt cobain shot himself in the head because of the overdose the amount of heroin a human body can stand. kurt cobain knew already what he was doing. he knew he was great but then he believed he wasnt so he rather killed himself while being super high in nirvana. so….all you dumbasses keep believing he was murdered by a goddess that loved him,,,,apparently most of you dont really know watsupp.
i have been a loyal fan to nirvana for 6 years now..
so all i gotta really rite here is
RIP
kurt cobain
your presence will still remain<3
June 3rd, 2008 at 6:05 pm
kurt,
your music changed the lives of millions of people and changed music as we know it today with your words and your sound to ends that many will never understand. every appril 8th i celebrate my birth…and also mourn your death…as an amazing person and song writer..i pray for you and take even just a moment to remember you always
June 3rd, 2008 at 11:14 pm
kurt…….nobody knows the relationship we have. ur just as alive as u ever were.wether u like it or not… people fucking love u man!! rock on and tell mosby i screamed “what!”
June 10th, 2008 at 5:40 pm
I will never forget coming home from school and turning on the TV to see that kurt had died, it changed me as a person, and as a 27 year old professional it still saddens me when I read this, even though I have been reading it for 14 years
You will never burn out, or fade away
June 30th, 2008 at 9:42 pm
kurt you have always been an inspiration to me. i always listen to your music. the lyrics reach out to me and really tell me what you thought about in your life. i always wish that i couldve meet you. i was born on the year that courtney put too much pressure on you and got in your head and made you kill your self. it wasnt the drugs or gun you used. it was that horrible women that used you. only if i could have meet you. not because of your music but because you and me have so much in common. we do most of the same things. you and me are both wild and daring. i watch all your interveiws. ill never do drugs because my mom and dad convince me and tell me how it can ruin your life. kurt you also told me not to do drugs on the interveiw when you were on metal express, while you were on the boat. you said how stupid it is to do drugs and ill always remember that advise you told me. i feel like i know you. i heard your also a huge john lennon fan. so am i but i look up to you a lot more. and also i heard that you and a lot of your music and lyrics were inspired by the beatles. and did you really live in john lennons garden for about a week then he caught you and he made you breakfast. i saw that on a documentary on john lennon and it showed real live footage of john lennon finding some person hiding in his garden for a week and brang him inside it looked just like you kurt. i think it said it was you. well ill ask you when i meet you in heaven. i love you kurt.
July 5th, 2008 at 1:22 pm
After reading this letter I could not belive how fuckin sad it was. I have Kurt Cobains journal and it failed to have his suicide note. But many “TRUE” NIRVANA fans all say the same fuckin thing Courtney Love had something to do with his death. Im a real big time Kurt Cobain lover and his music will live on forever. R.I.P Kurt Cobain you will always be in our hearts forever. I LOVE YOU KURT!!!!!!!!!
July 5th, 2008 at 1:32 pm
Sense I first got introduced to NIRVANA Kurt was always on my mind. I would wake up thinkin about him and goin to sleep thimkin about him. I have a pic of him on my dashboard in my truck. Kurt has influence me a whole lot.I mostly listin to his music rather than his lyrics. The music is the most powerful. It really touches me every time I hear his music. Kurt is soooo fuckin HOT!!!! And his voice is amazing. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE KURT COBAIN!!!!!!!
July 13th, 2008 at 12:37 am
kurt is amazing i wish he were still alive if it werent for the freak if kurt was still here he would’ve made somemore great music.i believe courtney killed him.kurt influenced me so much and other peoples lives.
kurt donald cobain
feb.20,1967-apr.5,1994 we love you kurt!
July 13th, 2008 at 12:44 am
whenever kurt touches the guitar he sounds wonderful and every single song he wrote is great and thats what i miss about him.love you kurt!!!
July 27th, 2008 at 9:49 am
nevermind-the last great rock album by the last great rock and roller.
August 4th, 2008 at 12:56 pm
kurt instead of commiting suicid u could have just quit a rocker
R.I.P. though
August 12th, 2008 at 2:08 am
Peeple! Please stop being so naive! Before you just believe that Kurt Cobain would kill himself at least look into it! If your any kind of fan of Kurt or Nirvana you owe him at least that! Look into it and think, ‘Does any of this make sense?’ Because if you look at it all it doesn’t! Yes you can be asinine and look the other way to think that maybe he would kill himself but the facts show that most likely that’s not what happened! And if you think hard, don’t worry not to hard it’s acualy very easy, you can surely come up with at least two people who would want him dead and had the money and power to pull this off. Think who got left behind and who got the big bucks, and left over music, after the death of Cobain. Can’t figure it out yet? Well then you must not have done your reading and you don’t deserve to be a fan. For one just look at the note! Don’t just read what was written! Look at the actual note, look a little funny? Well look again! It’s two different hand writtings! And not just the I’m writting nice now I’m writting messy. Who got all his music when he died? Who got all his money? Who is still making money off of him? Come on, can you really be that idiotic? All these 11 and 12 year olds saying they love Kurt and how he changed their lives even though they weren’t born till after he was dead! Are you kidding me?!?! They know nothing about him! How could they! That makes me sick to think that people would let their kids of all people think that this was a suicide! How dare you! I have a seven year old, she listons to Nirvana with me and she knows the whole story! Sorry I know i’m rambling and most people don’t even care but saying that Kurt Cobain killed him self is a crime to everyone who he touched in life and now in death.
August 12th, 2008 at 2:11 am
BOYCOTT CORTNEY LOVE AND DAVE GROHL, THEY KILLED KURT COBAIN!!!!!
August 27th, 2008 at 1:21 am
i just want to say kurt cobain is our HERO !!
August 30th, 2008 at 10:53 am
I remember the day Kurt Cobain died I was 15yrs old & everyone assumed it was suicide… I lean more to the murder theory just cos some pieces of evidence just dont add up…. but having said that NONE of us fans know 4 sure what happened to him only he does, Courtney & ? I also feel the police did a sloppy job in his case. There are lots of facts that u can research @ justiceforkurt.com
Some things I find strange are the fact that he wished to divorce Courtney, also that he hired an investigator & that he was fearful of his life…If u were suicidal why would u care for your personal safety?? And the handwriting samples in the backpack is really suspicious..who does that?? The 90s were a great time to be a teen/adult & fuck I miss that wonderful era full of cool music..But having said that I dont hold it against anyone who is younger than me who listens to nirvana or other bands…alice in chains is a good 1 too..layne rocks. You cant have everything from ur own era & I personally would be a hypocrite cos I own 60/70s music which is wonderful & captures the mood/ feel of the time also it is interesting to see the influences of people such as Kurt & other musicians..u can hear it in their music..
September 11th, 2008 at 4:53 pm
kurt is my favorit person in the world….his songs toutch my heart.. i will always miss him..and i to think that he did not kill himself i think his wife did…i dont care what other people think i will always think that. i love u kurt and i always will RIP
September 16th, 2008 at 8:11 pm
i remmber the day it all went down it was like a blurr to meseeing his boby layed out on mtv’s live news report and then aday or to later im notsure by then i was getting to phucked up to besure cortney read this letter live over the phone i was 16 then 31 now and i still feel that there was so much more going on with it will never prove she did it but we all now she did yoko love in action another candyland loser who did what ever she hadto just to keep her throne……………..
October 6th, 2008 at 6:53 pm
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
—i think this part is fake cause the rest is about quitting music till here
October 10th, 2008 at 2:10 pm
Kurt Cobain and Nirvana Rulez.
I wanted to meet Kurt but that terrible thing was happened…. ;(
October 21st, 2008 at 8:14 pm
I was seventeen when you passed away. I remember that day…we were crushed by the news. Half the school went home.
You changed music as we knew it, and because of you, writers and musicians like myself have a voice. You were not a virtuoso, but a poet - both simple and complex.
Rest in Peace Kurt, you will never fade away.
November 5th, 2008 at 9:24 am
people…
kurt changed my life like he changed all of yours, but re-read the letter, maybe once or twice… observe it well… look for a deeper sense.
THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE LETTER.
this is just a letter saying he is done with the whole media/music/nirvana shizzle and is leaving the music industry because he just doesnt like it anymore.
the only lines that actually say he was going to die are the last four. if you look in, you ser that it is not the same handwriting. and it is writen at the end of the letter, after the signature, as if it were a post-scriptum. im Kurt wanted to say he was going to die, he would have done so diffrently. he was a smart person, he wouldnt have ended his life like that… even if he was high, even if he didnt like what he was doing, he would not have commitied suicide.
KURT COBAIN WAS MURDERED. AND COURTNEY WAS INVOLVED.
http://www.cobaincase.com
http://www.justiceforkurt.com
November 6th, 2008 at 11:12 am
well of corse he was murdered cause there was no fingerprints on the shotgun, there was a tiny bit of blood by him, no BRAINS anywhere in the room he shot himself in.
November 6th, 2008 at 11:14 am
well I think he was murdered cause there was no fingerprints on the shotgun, there was a tiny bit of blood by him, no BRAINS anywhere in the room he shot himself in. That pretty much explains right there that he was murdered!
November 6th, 2008 at 5:46 pm
i like bum a lot
November 6th, 2008 at 5:49 pm
im i stupid head hav i mentioned i like bum a lot
November 6th, 2008 at 5:50 pm
KKK sucks
November 6th, 2008 at 5:50 pm
black people rule